The other very big change in our lives came on July 4th. I finally convinced Darrin that after nearly a week of being terribly ill he needed to go to the hospital.
He had a terrible gaunt look to him and I was pretty freaked out. I am so grateful to Amie and Sharon who helped me to get him into the car. I also was able to call on my brothers Brad and Kirk whose families watched Benji while I left.
Amie came to the hospital with us. I am so glad she did. When I heard the word Sepsis, I was terrified. I knew what it was and that it was very serious. Darrin was seriously ill.
After about a week in St.Marks hospital. They had Darrin stabilized enough to move him to a rehabilitation center. He was there for 6 weeks.
He still has infection in his leg and has lymph edema. He has finally been able to return to work but it is with much pain and difficulty. We are at a point of "okay so where do we go from here?".
He is off of the antibiotics now and we have been instructed to keep a very close eye on his leg and his temperature to make sure he doesn't get sick again. But in the mean time he is still in pain and the swelling isnt getting any better. It is a frustrating process.
I am struggling. I am realizing that I have some very selfish tendencies. I would love to tell you that I am just awesome about being supportive and taking over everything but I am really feeling overwhelmed.
Darrin is amazing the way he goes to work in spite of the pain I know he is in. I love him so much. He is frustrated and discouraged too and I am sure he is feeling unsure about what the future holds. We are both a bit stressed and need to make more time for just the two of us but since he can't really go out much and the kids are here too we will have to send them to bed earlier or something.
Well I don't plan to make this blog a downer all the time. I hope you will forgive my self indulgence. Just need a place to process I guess.
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